10.30.09
Oct 30th, 2009 by rajat in Text
These days, life is all but a blur… Everything is happening so fast, that I hardly have time to look back and recollect things.
Old things are dumped, newer ones are taking their place. Invigoration!
And yes, amidst all this, I’m but a silent spectator, letting everything happen as it does. Quite unlike me? Yeah, you can say that; for I always want to do things my way. Not this time though, and I don’t know why. Perhaps I’ve lost interest in things.
Digging deeper is turning out to be counterproductive – I’m not ready to face the hard facts. For now, at least. Though I know that I’ll have to, sometime, somewhere…
Suddenly, it feels that I’m a different person altogether. Alter ego, anyone?
Are you lonely? because, when you are lonely, you have no choice but to accompany yourself. When you accompany yourself, you start noticing yourself.
No you haven't become different.
Lonely? Well.. I have friends – we hang out together, watch movies, make each other laugh, and have lots and lots of fun.
At the end of the day however, everything feels like distant past.
Lonely? I can't say. I have to do a lot of thinking about this I guess.
At the end of the day, can you phone any friend of yours and say, "I'm bored, talk to me." or on some holiday, can you call up your friend and just order him/her to hang out with you? And if they agree to spend some time with you, then you are not lonely.